Picking up from where I left off late last night ….
Last night I had the opportunity to finally watch Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, a movie featuring several big actors, like Jim Carrey, Kate Winslet, Elijah Wood Kirsten Dunst and Mark Ruffalo. It’s a movie I have been wanting to see for quite some time now and, since Dan and I are trying out a free Netflix subscription, we figured, “Hey, why not?”
First of all, let me say that if you are a person who prefers to understand a movie right off the bat, then forget trying to watch this film. It’s confusing and eccentric to say the least, and it’s mildly Tarantino-style of shooting might drive you crazy. But if you are a movie watcher who can resist the urge to consistently say, “What the eff?!” for the entire first hour, then go for it. You will be pleased.
Without giving away the ultimate outcome of the film, let me explain the very, very basic premise: When Joel (Carrey) meets Clementine (Winslet), the two are an instant pair, falling madly (deeply, truly) in love with one another. Things are blissful until things get ugly (yep, the honeymoon is over) and Clementine chooses to erase Joel from her life — literally. The story follows the couple’s journey to forget one another only to discover they were truly meant to be.
When the movie was over, Dan and I looked at each other at the same time. Before I could get out “Would you remember me even if you erased me from your memory?” he said “Would you ever want to erase me from your memory?” Tells you a bit about us.
We giggled. And then, we both became thoughtful. Is true love — that eternal concept of love at first sight — really just two souls’ recognition of a counterpart in one another?
This concept is a wicked, but deep one. I don’t believe in love at first sight, but I do believe in the power of the universe and its knowledge of something much greater than any one of us. I don’t believe we can erase (literally, not figuratively) someone from our lives, but I do believe that great bonds are simply a deeper knowing of a previous history.
I said to Dan, “Maybe I love you so much because I have already known you prior to this life. Maybe you annoyed me so much that I erased you and everyone else knows, except for you and me.”
He laughed and said, “Yes, and, perhaps, when we found each other again, they all said ‘Screw it. Just let them be.'” We giggled again.
The feeling after this movie was one that was reminiscent of the weirded-out vibes you get after watching a movie like “The Matrix” or reading a book like George Orwell’s 1984. What if we are all just one big, computerized, numerical universe? What if we are all being controlled by Big Brother and we don’t know it?
What if I knew you before and these familiar feelings are simply things I have already felt before?
Cue the spooky, Twighlight Zone music.
I am not a big fan of “New Years'” resolutions. Instead, I am a believer in the idea that you make a resolution the moment you feel an inclination to make a change. There is no better time than now.
That’s why I love the First 30 Day’s Ultimate Guide to Resolutions. Read through the list of tips and you’ll see point #1 is “Never make your resolution on January 1. Actually, don’t even make them in the first two weeks of the year.”
Instead, sit down and think about what you really, really want this year. Use the worksheet that comes with the First 30 Day’s Ultimate Guide to Resolutions and start by reviewing the last year. What was the best thing that happened to you? What are the top three lessons you learned? Answering questions like these will help you to assess what you really, really (REALLY) want for the new year.
“What I like most about change is that it’s a synonym for ‘hope’. If you are taking a risk, what you are really saying is, ‘I believe in tomorrow and I will be a part of it’.” –Linda Ellerbee
One of my favorite suggestions in the F30D Ultimate Guide to Resolutions for forming your resolution: Pick a word of the year.
Focusing on one word — whether it is “yes,” “honesty” or “health” — can train your body and brain to move toward change.
My word — Purposeful. I am working toward my goals this year with great purpose. I am excited. I am revved up. And I am ready to welcome change.
What’s your word? What’s your goal?
Like Ariane de Bonvoisin, the creator of F30D and author of The First 30 Days: Your Guide to Any Change (And Loving Your Life More), says, “You have a ‘change muscle’, a part of you that is really good at change, is strong, powerful, and intuitive and knows exactly what to do. It’s time to remember that part of ourselves.”
Now, go set some goals … with purpose.
You have to, have to, have to run out and buy these tasty little babies right now. It might sound a little too risque (or icky) for your palate, but these Trader Joe’s dark chocolate soybeans are a sweet treat straight from the chocolate gods.
And, hey, at 200 calories and 11 grams of fat for every 1/4 cup it might sound a little bit high on the numbers scale. But consider this: Edamame packs healthy fats unlike your trusty Double Stuff Oreos. One serving of these oh-so-yummy treats also has five grams of fiber and 7 grams of protein.
I figure, heck, if I am going to snack, then this is surely the better option, right? And seeing as how it’s the most wonderful time of the month . . . I’ll snack as much as I want. Got it?!
I don’t know what it is about the holiday season — perhaps, the egg nog? — that makes everyone fall into such a stupor, but for some reason the most wonderful time of the year is a culprit in helping us to forget that the world is still spinning.
And, now, it feels like so many of us have woken up from the visions of sugar cookies (I like ’em better than sugar plums) dancing in our heads, and we’re kind of like “Oh, holy craptastic this is the real world!”
So, that’s where I’m at right about now — adjusting to being back in Ohio (we spent the holidays in Pittsburgh) and getting organized. There’s so much to do, there’s so much to do … I feel like at any moment I might turn into a little white rabbit and start sneaking glances at my pocket watch every 30 seconds while I run around town.